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[May. 19th, 2006|08:45 pm] |
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havnt updated in a while, but i've had alot on my mind....so as it turns out i am a jerk. i never realized it b4. i just say htings with out even thinking about them soimetimes. i mean they're just words how could they hurt? WRONG! i always thought that the ends would justify the means but as it turns out it doesnt, it never does. many a time i said "i love you" and hell yes i ment it, however sometimes i said that same quote out of repition or just not wanting t oupset someone, and now as i sit hear typing i realize just how awful that is. i even said we might get back together, that was such a fuking mistake, i didnt even think about what it could do to her, and it did quite alot. she'll say i lied non-stop which is not true, and i understand she is mad and it probably seems that way. however i did say alot of things that i now know i shouldn't have. and in realizing this im am going to do my best to change. i hope i'll carry this lesson with me for the rest of my life. Maryclare, know it or not you have taught me a lesson i wont soon forget. and not only that you will always have a place in my heart, and ill never forget, never ever forget all the good times we had together. hate me or not i still want to be your friend, but after what happened i can totaly understand why you wouldnt want to be my friend......but know i always have cared for you, and probably always will, and im sorry, im so sorry, im sorry that i cant even say it enough times. i wish i could say this all in person but i think right now you really dont want to see me, and again i understand. in closing know i always had the best intentions, as little as im sure that means to you right now, its true. i hope once your not as mad at me maybe you'll call me and i can tell you im sorry in person and we can talk. i can only begin to image all the hate comments ill be getting on this, some of which ill probably deserve, but i think all this needs to be said. |
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[Apr. 9th, 2006|03:56 pm] |
My middle name is: Francis
I was born on: July 24th
I was born in: LI
My fav. cereal: cheerios
My eye color is: brown
My shoe size is: 10
My ring size is: good question
My 1st period class is: History
My height is: 5' 10”
I am allergic to: nothing as far as I know
I live in: Woodbury
The last book I read: passage to dawn
My bed is: teal
One thing I know for sure about the opposite sex is: they are crazy
One thing I would do if i was the opposite sex: sleep around (LOL)
My last hug was: Maryclare
My last phone call: Maryclare
My last bloody nose: dont remember
My last 2 things i bought: food and tickets
My phone provider: T_moble
My favorite Holiday is: thanksgiving
The perfect kiss is: when its raining
The last three cd's I bought are: buy CD’s ha!
Last song that made me cry was: November rain
My most treasured possession(s) is/are: my weapons and my D&D books
What did you do last night: hung out with Maryclare
My skin's reaction to the sun is (tan/burn): tan
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Easter bunny: no
Love at first sight?: I guess
Luck: yea
Faith?: I suppose
God?: idk
Aliens?: idk
Heaven?: I guess
Hell?: idk
Ghosts?: prob.
Horoscopes?: NO
Soulmates?: idk
:::::Which is Better?:::::
Hugs or Kisses?: both are nice
Drunk or High?: drunk
Phone or online: idk
Night or Day: idk
Oranges or Apples: both
Curly or Straight hair: straight
:::::Here's What I Think About:::::
Abortion?: idc, but in favor of life
Backstabber?: im sure ill get over it eventually unless they really do stab me w/ a knife then id be pissed
Parents?: take um or leave um
School?: sucks except for my friends there
::::Last time I::::( family doesn't count)
Kissed someone: yesterday
Last time i hugged someone: yesterday
Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: idk
Finally forgave your enemies: idk
Grew?: idk
Who's the ditziest person I know: idk
Who makes you laugh the most: idk
One thing I'm pissed about right now is: idk
The last movie I saw in the theater was: V for vendetta
The thing I don't understand is: this survey apparently
The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever recieved: idk
The one thing I love about the opposite sex is: they're fun to hang out with
This summer: will be hot?
Something I will really miss when I leave home: leave home?
The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: seeing Maryclare
Tomorrow: idk
Today: NOTHING
Next Summer: idk
Next Week: spring break!!!!
People call me: my name
The person I have been good friends with the longest: Alex
The person/people who know the most about eggs: people who work in poultry factories?
The person that can read me the best is: idk can anyone read me?
The most difficult thing to do is: idk
I have gotten a speeding ticket: no
I have the following siblings: Matt
My zodiac sign is: Leo
The first person I was in love with was/is: Blair
The one person who can't hide things from me: no one
Right now I am talking to: maryclare
Is it weird to you that some numbers are missing? NUMBERS!?!?!?
I have/will get a job at/with: Krispy Kreme grrr
I have these pets: fish
I hope: idk
The worst sound in the world: idk
The person that makes me cry the most: Evan
Sharpies or Highlighters: sharpies !!!!!!
Chicken/Beef: tough choice
Florida or Hawaii: Hawaii, cuz Florida sux
My favorite piece of clothing is: leather jacket!!!
My favorite sport(s) to play is: Football
Last time I cried: idk prob recently
The school I go to is: SHS
Last person I got pissed at: idk
My worst drinking experience was: lets not get into that….
The all-time best movie is: idk prob BATMAN
The all-time best thing in the world is: maryclare
So, about them Canadians? BASTARDS
Do you like to spam? nah
The most annoying person you know is: idk
I lose all respect for people: what respect for ppl?
My favorite place: idk guess don’t have one
My room: has SWORDS ^_^
My favorite celebrity is: idc
My weakness is: maryclare
What turns me on: maryclare
Broke your heart last: blair
I filled out 200 questions: shit
What do you regret most: life and stuff I guess |
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[Mar. 19th, 2006|10:11 pm] |
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amazing weekend. i got to see maryclare 4 times, whoah!! we saw the GREASE, witch i liked but she didnt (shush), then we hung out on friday, then we saw V for Vendetta on saturday, and today we hung out yet again. good times, crazy times, good times <3 i love you maryclare <3 |
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[Mar. 12th, 2006|10:03 am] |
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just finished breakfast and uhhhhh im so full. i get t osee maryclare today and im so excited i cant wait. seeing her is the best part of my week, my life. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2006|10:15 pm] |
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| | dont damn me_GnR | ] |
Don't damn me
When I speak a piece of my mind
'Cause silence isn't golden
When I'm holding it inside
'Cause I've been where I have been
An I've seen what I have seen
I put the pen to the paper
'Cause it's all a part of me
Be it a song or a casual conversation
To hold my tongue speaks
of quiet reservations
Your words once heard
they can place you in a faction
My words may disturb
But at least there's a reaction
Sometimes I wanna kill
Sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna destroy
Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes I could get even
Sometimes I could give up
Sometimes I could give
Sometimes I never give a fuck
It's only for a while
I hope you understand
I never wanted this to happen
Didn't want to be a man
So I hid inside my world
I took what I could find
I cried when I was lonely
I fell down when I was blind
But don't damn me when I speak
a piece of my mind
'Cause silence isn't golden
when I'm holding it inside
'Cause I've been where I have been
An I've seen what I have seen
I put the pen to the paper
'Cause it's all a part of me
How can I ever satisfy you
An how can I ever make you see
That deep inside we're all somebody
An it don't matter who you wanna be
But now I gotta smile I hope you comprehend
For this man can say it happened
'Cause this child has been condemned
So I stepped into your world
I kicked you in the mind
An I'm the only witness
to the nature of my crime
But look at what we've done
to the innocent and young
Whoa listen to who's talking
'cause we're not the only ones
The trash collected by the eyes
and dumped into the brain
Said it tears into our conscious thoughts
you tell me who's to blame
I know you don't wanna hear me crying
An I know you don't wanna hear me deny
That your satisfaction lies in your illusions
But your delusions are yours an not mine
We take for granted we know the whole story
We judge a book by its cover
and read what we want
Between selected lines
Don't hail me
An don't idolize the ink
Or I've failed in my attentions
can you find the missing link
Your only validation is in living your own life
Vicarious existence is a fucking waste of time
So I send this song to the offended
I said what I meant and I've never pretended
As so many others do intending just to please
If I damned your point of view
could you turn the other cheek
Don't damn me when I speak a piece a mind
'Cause silence isn't golden
when I'm holding it inside
I've been where I have been
An I've seen what I have seen
Put the pen to the paper
'Cause it's all a part of me
Don't damn me
I said don't damn me
I said don't hail me
Don't damn me
yeah i know im a loser and ive opost song lyrics, but i really like this song and hey: dont damn me! |
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[Mar. 9th, 2006|06:38 pm] |
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::yawn:: tired and bored, i have been doing soooooo much work these past few days argh!!! so yeah..so i figured i'd just update casue i haveent in such a long time, so as i said just letting you all know i have not fallen off the face of the earth, or should i say the face of Toril, but w/e lol. argh i miss Maryclare so much, i havent seen her in a while and i just wnat to rap my arms around her and never let her go.... |
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[Feb. 28th, 2006|07:32 pm] |
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idk what to do |
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[Feb. 27th, 2006|11:10 pm] |
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home, yay. btw mc sorry i didnt call i didnt get in untill 10-ish and i didnt want to call u cause it was to late sry, but i love you babe |
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[Feb. 8th, 2006|10:24 pm] |
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i dont know what to even say right now.....this is all a bad dream i know it is, and i want to wake up, i want to wake up, why cant i wake up.....
RIP Evan Schilling, such a thing couldnt have happened to a nicer guy....we all miss you....why did you leave us? |
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[Jan. 24th, 2006|06:53 pm] |
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ARGH!!!! uhh...mind numbing heading.......think its a migrain b/c the light isa burnin' me eyeses ::bleh:: |
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[Jan. 21st, 2006|11:22 pm] |
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holy cow, today was totaly awsome! spent all day with MC, we watched fantastic 4, played pool, and watched austin powers and we just takled and talked for hours, it was really fun |
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[Jan. 14th, 2006|09:08 pm] |
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yay for kissing in the rain <3 |
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[Jan. 13th, 2006|04:06 pm] |
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i hate fighting, especialy when it somehting so stupid, i hate crying... |
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[Jan. 6th, 2006|08:10 pm] |
What is the one thing you regret the most? Being a push over, a specific time comes to mind but every so often now
Where is your favorite place you have ever been? Italy, its such a beautiful country
Who is the one person you miss the most? Maryclare
What is the worst thing you ever did? Hmmmm…im generally a pretty good kid, but every so often I can be pretty naughty…
What is your most missed memory? A simpler time whne I didn’t have so many responsablities, although I would miss some ppl….a certain someone…..
How many places did you live? 1
Where were they? East meadow and woodbury
How many boyfriends or girlfriends did you have? 2
Did you get along with your parents? Usually, but sometimes one of them gets out of hand
Did you get along with your siblings? yeah
Do you have any regrets? Regrets ive had a few, but I did it my way!
Do you like who you are right now? yah, but i could improve in certain areas
Are you single or taken? taken
Do you drink? When given the opertunity
Do you smoke? no
Do you miss anything? I think I mentioned this already
Do you wish everything was different? I wish some things were different.
Do you have a favorite thing to do on a rainy day? Well I would like to make out in the rain, hehehe
What is the ONE thing that you could not live without? Maryclare, and my friends
What song is the first one on your playlist at this very moment? Welcome to the jungle by GnR
What was the most exciting thing you did all day? Uhhhh being able to sit down w/ out my stomach hurting….uhhhhhh……bad day today
What is the most boring thing that happened all day? Rater not go into it
Do you have a crush? yah...I guess you could call it that
What TV show can you absolutely not miss ever? Idk I miss shows all the time
What is your favorite sport to play? football
What is one thing you want to tell every1 but u no they will make fun of u? nothing really im pretty tactless
What is your favorite band? GnR/Deep purple
What is the most important feeling you have? Love, for that special someone and all my buddies
What makes you mad? idk
What makes you sad? Being alone…
What makes you happy? Love, and my friends
What makes you fall in love? Idk its more then that feeling its when you can do thingns for someone and not care how out of your way you go, and well its hard to explain, you just know
Have you ever been in love? Infact I am right now
What's your favorite quote? "heres a fun fact, you made out with your sister, man!"hehehe
Where do you see yourself in 10 years? As a cop with a nice salary supporting a certain struggling artist….
What job do you want to have? Cop
Are you married? in ten years or now?
Do you have children? maybe
How many? Idk
What are their names? idk
What is the one thing you NEED to happen? Get into the academy
Who do you wish you could visit to show off to? nothing and no one
Who is one person you never want to see again? W/e im easy
Where do you want to live? Idk, but I don’t want toi leave LI
Do you want a house or an apartment? house eventually
What is one place you cant go back to? Idk
Why? idk
Where is one place you MUST go back to? Vermont I guess
Why? Idk, I gues other ppl will be there
Who is one person you must talk to? Maryclare
Why? cuz I wove her
What car do you drive? none
Are you close with your family? some of them
Do you live near home? yah, in fact I live in my home
Do you still talk to your high school friends? oh those losers? No never
Will you die happy? If I did right now, yeah, but I would miss soioooooooo much |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2006|06:58 pm] |
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Where do you live: Paradise city- GnR
Describe your first love: nastypiece of work- Deep Purple
What is your favourite thing to do: lick it up- Deep purple (lol)
Describe your current love/crush:sweet child o' mine- GnR
What do you like to wear: Back in black- Ac/DC
What is your challenge: Rock your heart out- AC/DC
Who are your friends: Mr. Brownstone- Gnr
Describe how you look: Its all right- GnR
What did you do last night: Shoot to thrill- AC/DC
What is your goal in life: knockin' on hevan's door- GnR
What do you do when you're angry: Anything goes- GnR
When do you have sex: Yesterdays- GnR
How do you want to die: Thunder struck- AC/DC
What do you say to your parents: Got you by the balls- AC/DC
Where do you hang out: highway to hell- AC/DC
What do you think of society: The battle rages on- Deep purple
Describe your most recent heartbreak: the razors edge- AC/DC
What is your excuse for everything: im an asshole- dennis leary
What are your thoughts on a Friday evening: let me put my love into you- AC/DC
What is your unanswered question about life: are you ready- AC/DC
What is your favourite colour: back in black- AC/DC
What is your advice to the those less experienced: get it hot- AC/DC
What would you rather do right now: talk about love- Deep purple
Describe your best friend: ramshakle man- deep purple
What's under your bed: one mans meat- Deep purple
What is your most prized possession: my michelle- GnR
Where will you honeymoon: omish paradise- WEird Al
What is on your to-do list: move to the city- Gnr
Where would you rather be: nighttrain- GnR
that was pretty cool but after a while it got annoying, lol |
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[Dec. 21st, 2005|05:39 pm] |
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why dont i just crawl into a hole and die, maybe the world would just be a better place if i wasnt around, i just fuck things up anyway |
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[Dec. 21st, 2005|02:47 pm] |
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today was good but like i thought about maryclare all day, and at luch i hung out with raffi and eric and im like awwwwwwww i want to do that, mc where are you >_< but yeah to make a long story short i love maryclare, and i miss her soooooooooooooooo much |
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